A couple of months ago, I decided I want to stop blogging because of one reason mainly. That reason was I lost touch with being creative. I had no drive. Interestingly enough, I realized no one cared. And during these couple of months, I began a new personal project. But I won’t change the topic of why I stopped writing and why I’m back now.
Being creative to me meant sharing everything I felt and thought through words here on this blog. Yet, I didn’t feel driven or connected with some of the topics I would write about. Hence why I started writing poetry. I wanted a flow, a rhythm that not only felt good to read but resonated with myself and my readers. And then, I started thinking about making this blog more popular, and I fell into a rabbit hole that left me discouraged and empty. So I stopped writing here. But I never stopped journaling (but that’s entirely different). I felt utterly disconnected with no joy in blogging simply because I’m human, and sometimes I have moments where I have no creative flow.
I had forgotten this Blog Space is about me and no one else but me. My journey is one of a kind, and I sometimes fail to remember that as I share my ups and downs with friends, strangers, and family. You know that saying sharing is caring, well be mindful of who and what you’re sharing. I’ve shared many real personal stories here on my blog and with others, and moving forward, I will be more cautious about what will be shared because I know now everyone does not have the capacity nor ability to intake or advise or comment on my journey.
However, I’m grateful for people who want to see me do well in life and continue my writing and other life goals. The Pandemic has shown us how short life is and how quickly it can be taken away. And it’s shown us that taking a moment for ourselves to sit down and RELAX. Because if you haven’t been taking care of yourself pre-COVID, I’m sure you are now. At least I hope you are!
So let me conclude by saying. I’m back, and things may be different. After all, I have a therapist I share my most personal stories with on a bi-weekly schedule. But I’ll still keep it real and thought-provoking here. This space here is curated, produced by me, and initially me with me in mind.